Praying privately in churches, I began to discover that heaven was my true home and also that it was here and now, woven into this life. |
I thought of such Christian inventions as the ghetto and the Jewish badge of shame. The Nazis didn't have to go very far to pick up their know-how. |
I found that when I did something for the sake of heaven, heaven happened. These things changed my life. I owe them to my encounter with Christianity. Topics: Christianity |
Christianity had two faces which bewildered me - two pictures which didn't fit. |
My mother enjoyed old age, and because of her I've begun to enjoy parts of it too. So far I've had it good and am crumbling nicely. |
Old friends die on you, and they're irreplaceable. You become dependent. |
Someone gave me a New Testament. I had never before read it systematically. Some parts made sense, some parts shocked me. |
I recovered my infant Judaism, but in a reformist version. |
For a devotee or lover, the being, worshipped or loved, will always be the only one for her or him. |
At religious instruction classes, I encountered The Pilgrims Progress by John Bunyan, and the sincerity of the traveller in that book was overwhelming. |
I was certainly open for something being on the edge of a nervous breakdown, perplexed by my own sexuality. I was gay. |
It's more fun to watch without joining in. |
I was not comfortable worshipping another Jew. |
During the Second World War, evacuated to non-Jewish households, I encountered Christianity at home and in school. |
What would I have done if I'd been put to the test? Would I have risked my own life for people I hardly knew? Probably, I would have looked the other way at best or become another apologist for evil at worst. |
I was not allowed a physical lover. Falling in love with Love was the best I could get. |
On the way to work good-hearted young girls sometimes offer me their seats, which I accept and bless them in return, a transaction satisfying to all concerned. |
I have ended as a Reform Rabbi, grateful to Christianity for so many good things. |
I still go to a Christian priory for retreats. |
To my surprise, my 70s are nicer than my 60s and my 60s than my 50s, and I wouldn't wish my teens and 20s on my enemies. |