But if I wasn't playing, I would drink Saturdays, then Sunday, then Monday. Then I would try and train and it was no good, then have another drink just to pass the day away. |
I never refused an autograph, never refused to buy someone a drink. Now I'm learning to say I've got other things on, instead of doing it and wondering why. |
I know as a manager you have to abide by the chairman's decisions. But his decisions were this team, that team, this player, that player. The chairman is a control freak. |
I never predict anything, and I never will. |
I won player of the year and players' player, two cups and two championship medals, had a great time. |
Anyway, how can you sack anyone who still hasn't got a contract. I'll be there for the game and I'll stand behind the dugout giving instructions to the players from there. They will respond to me more than the next manager. |
Well, I did know - but I just wanted the day to pass and the next day to come and then I wanted that one to pass. It was a horrible cycle. I felt so close to having to pack the game in. |
I've got a bit of money in the bank. I'm quite comfortable. |
I'm going to do things when they are right for me. |
You learn, right, a lot of people's problems - why they get upset, why they get down, why they turn to drink - is because they can't say one word and it's N-O, no. |
I do want to be a manager one day. It might be 10 years, I don't know when. |
If I want to be a better person for whoever is in my life, I have to learn. |
I thought I did well for someone who has been out for 10 or 11 months. Then I was sub against Liverpool and tried to play for the guys and work on my fitness. |
But then I always wanted to play for Rangers. Man United is a great club and Alex Ferguson is a legend. |
I've had to deal with everything but everyone has helped me, including Sir Alex Ferguson, to get through. George Best was a good friend of mine. We loved each other, we both knew where we were coming from. |
I fought back, got injured again and I had to have another operation. I got down and depressed and I think I was drinking more than I should. Well, I know I was. |
At the end of it, I'll maybe do a coaching badge but I'm not going to get forced into things. |
If the fans want me out, I'll put my hands up and leave. Like a proper man. I won't make excuses, I'll leave. |
Then all the foreigners started coming over. I don't mind that but a lot of teams are laying out fortunes for ordinary players and that's no good for our youngsters coming through. |
I am going to continue and bring this club forward. I am Paul Gascoigne the footballer. |